You are the most unexpected thing that has ever happened to me.

How do I even begin to describe someone that brought so much chaos,

yet so much peace?

Perhaps you were the thing that I needed to get me to learn.

Learn that I was more than what you saw me as.

Learn that I was more than what I saw myself as.

As you pop in and out of my life,

I wonder why you always seem to show up.

You show up when I’m not at my best.

You show up when you see the perfect opportunity to take advantage of my weakness.

If you’re wondering what that weakness is…

it was you.

I feel like some way you knew it too.

That I would just open myself up,

just to let you in.

That I would take any opportunity to have you in my life again,

even if that meant it would destroy myself in the process.

You knew it all.

It’s like you were with me through every moment,

oh, the peace that brought me.

but the chaos you left me.