A Smile So by Eileen Um

A wave in my direction

I smile

Only to remind myself

That he would never know


He smiles so innocently

I almost fall again

The days the calls the nights


But he would never know 

His acts of kindness

Felt like something else


I have to remind myself

He doesn’t know 

My heart used to be in his fingertips


I turn around but

His smile so sweet

Only sinks into me cold.