1,2,3 - Gisella Hulsizer

My first mistake.

My mind stopped me from looking

But I wanted to see

I kept running to others to distract me

But I couldn’t escape you

I grew to know you more and more

Vines of confusion grew around me

I was stuck

My second mistake.

Everyone else was easy to figure out

But not you

I read people like books

But you were a language I didn’t speak

I tried and tried to read but just couldn’t understand

I was enraptured by the challenge

As I tried to figure you out more and more

I was trapped


My last mistake.

I tried to hate you with everything in me

But I couldn’t

Everyday I tore myself down

But talking to you built me back up

I didn’t think you saw through my act

But you did

I gave everything until I couldn’t

You made the pain bearable

I was beaten and tired

But I was done.