I wish you and I were still companions,
That could exchange more than silence.
Now you’re far away, While I chose to
stay, This is all due to your defiance.
I wish to inform you, “You’re selfish.”
And how you don’t deserve my pain.
My endless streams, The lucid dreams.
To you, I’m worth a grain.
What if you were still alongside me, And
you were still a factor in my life? Yet,
our words: unspoken, A heart left
broken, You knew what you were doing
that night.
What angers inside is your choice to
comply With the thoughts stuck inside
your mind. I hope you paused, “The
pain I’ll cause.” But you willingly chose
to be blind.
Dishonest, disloyal, disappointed in life
Still furious of what you had done. Such a
bitter heart, With words like darts. In this
game of life, death has won.
You should’ve known to stop yourself.
But you chose to close your eyes tight.
You nudged - forward, The ground -
toward, And fell down into the night.
It’s selfish to ask you to have stayed,
But it’s difficult to say which is
preferred: You here for a day, Or
forever away. I simply miss the way
things were.
Bickered days, endless debates,
The desperate and helpless tears.
Give me a while To learn to resmile,
And come back with lesser fears.
The fear of losing someone again,
One who had always been by my side. Now,
I’m over here While you’ve disappeared.
Believe me, God knows I tried.
The pain from the guilt of what I
could’ve done. I can’t get you back
at any cost. You lived, you died,
You couldn’t survive. “Live for the
ones you’ve lost.”
If only people could’ve met you,
Not the one afraid of society.
Confused, bruised, Abused and
used. Confident and empty of
anxiety.
You leave much more than a “shallow
scar” And it’s truly a wretched end. But,
we live, we learn, We continue to yearn.
So, rest in peace, dear friend.